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Its just really trippin’ me out how beyoncé wore blue nail vanish on her wedding day you can clearly see Jay’s IV tattoo then six years later they name their child


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I find myself wearing the same outfits a lot and I still can’t tell if its accidental or if I’m just too afraid to change. I once kept a profile picture for over half a year and its not that I liked it because I really didn’t but its because I didn’t want to see myself in pictures anymore. I still bite my nails and I pretend I can’t help it but I really don’t think I’d know what to do with them if they were grown out.

Last night you called me again and I felt that little drop in your stomach you get when roller coasters start to fall - you know the one - but I still acted like there wasn’t a strange mixture of sadness and loneliness and inexplicable terror all boiling in the back of my throat. I don’t know if you bought the idea that I’m okay but I do know you were the one who hung up. I don’t know if I hate what happened because I hate it when things become different or if I hate what happened because I miss you.

We haven’t exchanged messages in 76 days now and keeping track is pointless, I know that, but I still refuse to stop counting. Forgetting numbers has always been a struggle for me because I still remember my house phone number from when I lived in a completely different state but I’m trying my best to drag yours out of my head. I’m trying my best to stop checking for your name on my phone every morning.

I miss you. I miss you. I miss you and it’s killing me.

- Or maybe I’m just scared of what happens when I get over you: a collaboration between Alyssa (x) and Raquel.
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I hope you understand that. I didn’t want it to end, but this is how it has to be. I really wish I could be there for you, honest to God. But I’m not good for you anymore, and we’ve proved it through all the tears and fights. I’m sorry. I only avoid you because you need to be without me now. I don’t ignore you because I’m mad or because I hate you, but because when I’m about to talk to you I get so fucking depressed. I can’t handle it. I still hear your voice, your laugh, your cries, the words you said in the last few hours we were together, I still feel you gripping my arm telling me not to go. It hurts. Someone else will come around. Someone who is perfect, but i know that isn’t me. Mr. Tall? Mr. Swag? Mr. Dancer? Painter? Mr. Badass gone to Mr. Nice Guy? An angel? I don’t know. But I promise someone will show up, and you’ll be much happier. Just don’t rush into it.

Also, I swear I don’t ignore you because I want to, but because if we keep talking I know I’ll just fall for you all over again and I can’t do that. Its painful. I will not let that happen. That’s why I’m writing this here. This screen is my shield.

I’m also sorry if you think she and I are having this little “thing” going on. You mean so much more to me than anyone will ever know, and it pisses me off that people think otherwise with their assumptions about me so damn quick. As if I’m that low of a person like I’d just throw you away or something. I especially hate it when it comes from the people who I thought knew me better. I promise, the last thing I want right now is a girlfriend or a “replacement.” I miss you so much. I really can’t emphasize it. I love you, okay? I don’t ever forget that. I know life is such a bitch, but you’re stronger than all those negative thoughts. God wouldn’t give you anything you can’t handle. So please, stay strong and stay away from those bad ideas. Please, do it for me? Be good, I’ll be praying for you. There hasn’t been a day you left my mind. I love you, and don’t forget that.

happy birthday<3 take care of Caylee and tell her I love her. And be a good ate to Charlotte too!

"There is always one person you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively, but it happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of these lovable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable. The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone else, and they’re often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really, want to love someone. But that person still wins. They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else."
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"There it goes again. That heavy feeling in your chest when you don’t feel any desire to speak or move. All you want to do is close your eyes and sleep, because the process of being broken is incredibly exhausting. You attempt your best to make your days fulfilling, but no matter how hard you try you can’t seem to connect to anyone or anything."
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"I wish you would just show up on my doorstep. Not with anything special, just you. And when I’d open the door you’d smile and while I’m trying to figure out what the hell you’re doing here you’d tell me how hard the past months have been, how much you’ve thought about me, how much you regretted everything. And then you’d take me into your arms and ask me to forgive you and I would without hesitation. Then you’d grab my face and kiss me the way you used to and everything would be perfect again."
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imagine if you were born with the knowledge of your soulmate’s name but it was a really common name like chris

what a chrisis

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1. When a boy who leaves goosebumps on every inch of your skin tries to play you his favorite song, don’t let him. He’ll get it stuck in your head and under your fingertips and when he leaves, you won’t be able to listen to it without feeling like you’re choking.

2. Don’t let him touch you all over no matter how much you want to feel him against you. Leave a few spots untouched so that when you’re sleeping alone again, at least your left wrist and an inch of your right hip won’t sting with the remaining burn of his mouth.

3. Don’t let him break your ribs.

4. Don’t watch the sunset with him. He’ll poison it. You won’t be able to look at the sky without swallowing a mouthful of him.

5. Don’t mistake wasps for butterflies. Sometimes when you feel your stomach flutter and your hands start to shake it’s pain, not love.

6. Just because he tells you he loves you doesn’t mean he’s going to stay.

7. It’s okay to delete his number after he kisses the pretty girl he met when he was drunk. It’s okay to leave when he hurts you. You don’t have to keep falling into him.

8. When he tells you that you’re beautiful, try to remember that you were beautiful before him too.

9. Just because he reads and smokes cigarettes and talks about the stars doesn’t mean he’s your soulmate.

10. After you kiss him, remember to wash your mouth out right away so he doesn’t burn into your tongue.

11. He’ll kiss you in the rain and take you to little coffee shops. He’ll brush your hair out of your eyes and kiss your nose. He’ll grab your waist and whisper in your ear but six months later you’ll find yourself drunk texting him that you miss him and he won’t respond.

12. Your heart is going to break a million times. It’s going to feel like the world is falling apart around you. Your lungs will stop working some nights. You find yourself grabbing at your bones trying to hold yourself together. You’re going to feel like you’re dying. It’s going to be okay. You’ll find someone else to kiss you goodnight.

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